“And if I’m wastin’ all your time …”

I don’t know if I like it when a relationship reaches that introspective point where one person (or both) feel the need to assess where they are going and if they should stay with the person they’re with.

Tori Amos lyrics run through my head all the time, but the one that is sticking today is, “And if I’m wastin’ all your time this time …”

I have many things that must get done. I will be in Finland in 19 days. I need to get some vaccinations so that I can apply for college (apparently, I am very much so behind). I want to send my application in by next week.

I simply wish this period of introspection would have come at a different time. But, I cannot plan everything. I cannot have as much control as I would like over everything. Life simply doesn’t work that way.

And whatever happens, I’ll live. That’s a given: I’ll live. Stubborn and strong—that’s me.

I just don’t like thinking that I’ll be lonely. Loneliness is a killer.